Not that friends and family could have saved me from the The redmen TV one kiss is all it takes shirt and I love this newborn delirium (which saw me wake up chewing an ear plug, brush my teeth with moisturizer, and rock my bowl of pasta to sleep), but seeing new mothers on Instagram in pubs and restaurants, with their friends and family by their side, cooing over the baby, I recognize that something has been lost. I don’t think any of us will truly understand what we lost in the pandemic for years to come, but I’m certain we are underestimating the impact it has had on us.
In motherhood, I have felt myself dissolve and expand at the The redmen TV one kiss is all it takes shirt and I love this same time. In my light, short sleeps, I dream I am so powerful that I scare myself and others—a poltergeist soaring through the universe. (My mum says that I just need more sleep…) The indecision and anxieties of my former self have, for now, left my consciousness, as I focus all my physical and mental energy on lifting and loving my son. Before having a baby, I worried about taking a break from work, about my mind turning to pureed banana, which it has, but there’s wisdom in pureed banana; a few things I was always confused about have become clear.
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